And What about that fear (April 15, 2005)

And what about that fear of pain;
And therefore that playing things safe
That misleading of answering the courage of love
With the courage of love;
And what about that cover-up
In grandeur and busy-ness
If not to reap admiration
As a control over efforts-reward.

What about that fear of choosing
For what enlightens, enhances, enriches;
If not for fear of losing.
And what about that cover-up
In companionships with
No lasting impact
If not to participate in all the immediate distractions
Without running the risks of vulnerability.

And what about the pain
Involved in the consequential addictions
To the escapes in work and easy-company
That saves from deep attachednesses
But leaves us in the power of habitual (di)stress?
And what about the loss of meaning
As a consequence of the implicit deceits?
Never mind to guess..…. all happened all by itself.

Maybe indeed we deserve to have
Everyone and everything
Without conviction, without decision,
Without choice, without commitment,
And because I am as chicken as you
And I will not deny it too
You will indeed always have me
Just For Free.

Corry